I let myself down tonight.
I’ve committed to this blogging every day for 31 days. I’m half way through. I have done it faithfully each and every day. Some days I have been able to post right when the link goes up at 9:00 pm Pacific time. I had made the limit each day even when we lost an hour last weekend.
But then, tonight happened: a colossal sequence of events.
You see, yesterday I realized that one of my all time BFF’s birthday was today. I made a mental note to make a celebration for her. Then I got involved, invested, wrapped up completely today as I often do in my work which I love so much. The day passed too quickly, and suddenly it was evening.
After work, I took my dog for a quick walk, put him in the car and kept my dinner date waiting as he ran me by the store. There I bought my BFF some dazzlingly bright and tacky flowers. I tied on a shark balloon and wrote out a heartfelt card expressing how
very much I value our friendship. My dinner date was kind enough to take me to her house to drop off my gift. And my BFF was there! She was so glad to see me. I got to hug her in person on her special day. It felt great to share a moment with my friend.
Then, starving, dinner date and I, and my dog (who is staying with me for the last couple of weeks I have this condo before I move into a beautiful apartment with a killer view that doesn’t allow for my best canine friend) stopped into a neighborhood restaurant for a quick dinner. We enjoyed dinner while I also texted back and forth with my 19-year-old son who is away at college and in great need of a new phone. I still knew I had a couple of hours before my post had to be up and ready. I knew I could do it.
But texting got complicated and soon I was talking with my son as I drove home, parked…still on the phone (thank you blue-tooth) got the dog outta the back seat, put the leash on him, and walked him through the condo complex where he could do what dogs do when they walk…still on the phone. At last nearing my complex after a pleasantly warm evening walk, my son and I finished our conversation. I glanced down at my phone as I walked with the dog.
Six minutes past the midnight Eastern time deadline.
Deadlines exist for a reason. Right?
I cried. Right then and there. I said it out loud. “I didn’t post. I failed.” And I teared right up.
I knew I could no longer post for the challenge. I was no longer eligible for the prizes. Not that the prizes ever even mattered I told myself. It was more my commitment to me and the community. I said I would do it every day for 31 days. I do what I commit to doing. So, I did what teachers, and readers and writers do. I came right upstairs, opened my computer, and blogged about the heart crushing experience.
I may not be able to post on the website for SOLday#16, but I can post to my blog site, and it is still today here in California. So, there is some solace. There is also solace in knowing I cared for my friend, for my son, and for my dog, Buddy, tonight. And I still took time to write.